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Gateway
02:52
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A tidal wave
Of tooth decay
Will bring the end of days
No way to fix it
You can blame me
But there’s no way to change me
Or get the stains clean
It’s not worth it
Oh I suppose
That this could just be a way to
Make all the nodes in my head become attuned
I can savor
The earthly flavors
To save for later
In the basement
I’m so wasted
That you can taste it
So now I’ll have to face it
In the mirror
Oh I suppose
That this could just be a way to
Make all the nodes in my head become attuned
And so it goes
Another kaleidoscope of meaning
Ghosts and echoes of my own hidden feeling
I’m a gateway
You’re a gateway
We’re a gateway
Do not enter
I’m a gateway
You’re a gateway
We’re a gateway
Do not enter
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2. |
Unrefined
02:50
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And I wanted to play it
So that I could escape
Yeah I just wanted to play it
So get out of my way
Hi I’m alive it’s so good to be here
I‘ve been fine
Always unrefined because it’s too fun to be weird
Out of line
And I wanted to say it
But it might sound cliché
But I’m still going to say it
Because it feels good to say
Now I’ve arrived and I’m ready to see clear because
I’ve been blind
I’m riding high on an ocean of good cheer
In my mind
Can I spend it on my name?
This old void still feels the same
It’s been getting so mundane
That it’s driving me insane
I cannot sit idly by
As walls surround me
The clock inside is melting
As my demons hound me
Crawl back to earth
For what it’s worth
I’ll lock the pain inside
To feed my parasites
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3. |
Serendipity
03:18
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I don’t want to fight but I’m just so sick of playing possum
Longing through the night still
Waiting for my love to blossom
I know wrong or right but I can’t control the way I’m feeling
Need a song to write so I can think of something more appealing
Serendipity
Where I like to
Hide inside you
We think differently
But that’s alright
Because it’s how I like to be
I just want to follow but the road I’m on keeps disappearing
Waiting for tomorrow to try and stop
The past repeating
I can’t help but wallow
Because I can’t stop negative thinking
Bitter pills to swallow
To overcome this fear of sinking
Ancient history
I can’t fight it
Just be reminded
It’s a mystery
But I’m excited
For possibilities
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4. |
Wasted Potential
04:06
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Sprinkle a pinch of the heartache on my tongue
So I can lie apathetic in the sun
And then when my bodies completely numb
I can enter a new dimension
Well now it’s too late what’s done is done
I fell in a hole that I had dug
It seemed smart at the time but now seems dumb
I guess I should’ve known
And I thought that it’d be fun to release my inner child
And it felt like something that’d been missing for awhile
The potential
To do something special
And make it eventful
To be less empty
It’s mental
To have the credentials
You just need to let go
To feel less heavy
It’s always under the table, pixie dust
Fill me up with your thoughts until I bust
It’s been turning my brain cells into mush
Until I no longer give a fuck
Another heap of excitement on my plate
So that I can control my mental state
But it won’t be long till my body breaks
And I’m crushed by the load
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5. |
Medication
04:16
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And I need to take it
Everyday
For the reality that I don’t want to face
It’s become an obsession in my brain
And now I’m like a moth caught in its flame
My medication in my head
I know what I want but what I want is dead
In desperation I’d sell my soul
To get what I need but it’s been taking a toll
It’s been getting harder to sustain
This fantasy that I can just walk away
And I want to stop it
But I can’t
I can only push
Until it pushes back
It’s taking more and more to get me by
I try to run myself but I can’t seem to hide
Everything that I love has been cast aside
How can I tell the truth when I’m living a lie?
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6. |
Supermanic
03:07
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I don’t care about what I’ve got to wear
I don’t even care at all
I can go out in my underwear
As long as I am comfortable
I’m going far but its ok because I’m going to be a star
I’m in my car and I’m on my way because I’m coming where you are
I don’t want to go to work today
I just want to stay at home
All day long I’ll wallow in decay
I’ll reach out for the unknown
I’m going far but its ok because I’m going to be a star
I’m in my car and I’m on my way because I’m coming where you are
Who are you?
Rise and follow through
Must stay true
To see it bloom
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7. |
Bitter Masses
02:38
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I don’t want to be you
Who you want to be?
I’ll make this matter
Who you want to be?
I don’t want to be you
Who you want to be?
I’ll break the patter
It’s a grind for the bitter masses
So feast your eyes on the greener grasses
There’s still time to make it happen
Before you lose your mind in the next distraction
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8. |
Spiraling
02:56
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I’ve been trapped inside my head
With the part of me I thought was dead
It’s been dragging me closer to the edge
Until I go off…
Spiraling (x4)
And there’s an oozing in my brain
That’s been taking up all of the space
And if the pressure is not displaced
Then I’ll go off…
Spiraling (x4)
I can see it in your mind
Past the point I can define
I can see it in your eyes
Like a fire that never dies
Everything is so messed up
Seems one can never get enough
But there’s one thing I’m certain of
That I’ll go off
Spiraling (x4)
I can see it in your mind
There’s no words left to describe
I can see it in your eyes
Like a dream that comes alive
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9. |
Still Here
03:20
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I can need me
I can feed me
I can be my own
Center of attention
I can free me
Only I can be me
I can be my own
Source of amusement
A history of sitting on the couch
But I know what I must do now
Got to be who I want to be
And now it’s painfully obvious
I can teach me
I can reach me
I can be my own
Stamp of approval
I can please me
I can appease me
I can be my own Shoulder to cry on
A history of sitting on the couch
But I know what I must do now
Got to be who I want to be
So I’ll harness my energy
And I’m going to figure this all out
Cuz I’ve been living in the shadow of my doubt
Too busy lying to myself
But I’m the only one who can change that
I can praise me
I can raise me
I can be my own
Fountain of wisdom
I can believe me
I can release me
I can be my own
Shot at redemption
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10. |
Patience
03:32
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In a sea of green
I feel so angry
Head is full of steam
On the brink of going crazy
Try to let it go
With some time alone
In the dark it grows
Taller than a mountain daily
I can’t think clear
When I’m blinded by my fear
It only disappears
With patient waiting
Staring at the walls
While the pain withdraws
What goes up must fall
And there’s no way to stop decaying
In the here and now
I can find myself
Head is in the clouds
I was lost but found you baby
I want to be
Free to do what I please
But I’m stuck in between
The consequences
In the here and now
I’ll find myself
Stuck in the clouds
It must come down
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